When I was in hospital for a few days in the beginning of the month, my daughters slept in my bed, so when I came home and needed to recuperate, it was easier to bring our daughter or at least her mattress into our room! And so for the last 3 weeks she has stayed in our room, all 4 of us sleeping together in one room!! We have a three bedroom house and we all sleep in one room!
So today was the day to return to 'normal', we gave her room a good tidy as it had been used as a 'play room' for the last 3 weeks and was sooooo messy. And tonight the pyjama party ends and life returns to something that resembles 'normal' in my home, but the thing is, it makes me a little sad! I have liked having both my children so close and being together more!
So I chose this image of some beautiful flowers that a kind friend gave me. It doesnt have a lot of different colours, but doesnt nature just give the richest, finest colours and tones, dont you think?
Unlike most of my expat buddies here in Portugal, we have portuguese Tv, whereas the others have sky. Now I would have liked Sky but as my hubby is portuguese, it seemed silly to have uk tv in portugal. I mean if we're going to do, let's do it properly.
Despite several visits to Portugal before we moved I had never really watched portuguese Tv. At first I found it a bit strange, but once you get used it, it is pretty similar to UK tv but a little behind somehow. They have about four main national channels, which have expanded into the supplementary channels of repeats, news and sports. They have their gameshows, many the sindicates of what we have and some of which are long finished, such as the 'Price is Right'. They have many a soap or novellas as they call them, which are more, 'The bold and the Beautiful' than Eastenders!! But unlike our soaps, these are a set number of episodes, so more like a series but a Very long series going for a minimum of 100 episodes. And as soon as one finishes another is ready to start. They have shows from around the world, many American and British, so I can also watch some of my normal shows.
But mostly, sadly, I watch my english speaking channels, of Sony, AXN and Fox. My comedy and crime dramas that Im used to. But they are always subtitled, which has helped me with the language, especially as my language skills are much stronger in reading and writing than listening and speaking. I do try to watch some more portuguese tv, but can only watch in small doses due to my lack of language skills which then leads to boredom. And the news is just way too depressing!!
Some of my readers may be wondering where I have been (or not!). Well I have been having a bit of a difficult time, which I dont want to go into details. I have not been well, but it feels like a world of change has happened as well. In the last few weeks I have had my body bruised, my heart broken, I hit a wall (metaphorically) and a dream of a family gone. My life is full of stress and worry and I find myself in a dark place, not knowing where to go.
I know I will come through but how, when. Sometimes it is so hard to pick yourself up again and I feel weak for feeling weak, if you know what I mean. I have two gorgeous children who are my world and for them I have to go on, even though all I want to do is disappear under the duvet for a month.